I'm sure some of you out there know exactly was CTFD stands for. I need to apply this concept to almost every aspect of my life these days. I can't seem to get both my personal life and professional life on equal footing. When one seems to be doing well, the other seems to fail. I can't seem to shake the feeling of failure whenever one is less than perfect. Failure isn't even the right feeling, it's a weird stress induced level of neurotic craziness. Sometimes it makes me get super hyper and stay up all night trying to get things accomplished and other times it makes me curl up in the fetal position and going to bed at 8:00 right after the boys. I'm just glad that when it is the latter that I can at least get them to bed before I fall apart.
Thank goodness that the hubby is home now and not working out of town anymore. I think that in my mind I think that he's still gone and that I have to jam pack as much as I can into every moment of every day. While that isn't true, it does seem that we have been filling all our free time to reconnect with family and friends. That needs to slow down after the last weekend of days where the 3 year old didn't nap AT ALL, that was just evil to mommy.
So now am going to try to get something else done that will make me feel better. I'm glad that no one knows of this blog so I can just ramble as I need to. It's nice to be able to get some things off my chest with no judgements.
